my mind is full of uncertainties.
maybe that is one part of life everyone has to go through.
being the indecisive person, i really dun know how much thinking i have to go through to make a decision.
it seem easy. but the amount of thinking is really that much.

sometimes i really think that i am a failure.
i tell myself to change, please change, talk more, interact more.
but all would come to naught.
i told myself to face up to my feeling.
but i still wouldn't do so.
how i wish i got the courage to just say i love you.
but i don't have it.

sometimes i really wish to just leave everything behind and be alone.
sometimes i really wish i didnt know you at all.
sometimes i really hope that i didnt make that foolish choice.
would things be different then?
would i be happier over there?
many things have no answer.
and i would remain at the same spot.
at least for 6 more months.

sometimes i really wish to graduate from polytechnic fast.
so that i can really break off from the part of the past.
the part that i wouldn't want to go through if i had a choice.